eek, at this moment in time i am crying over some1...how sad but ive realsied how much i love them and let them walk all over me. :( the dude i always mention in my blogs, (my "first") bundi, has treated me like shit agen! :( rite, since we have had sex, we hardly speak anymre, even when e sees me e says FA and it hurts me, so i got on at him about it, well like i seid y? iz it to much of a effort to even speak t me?! n eugh anyway, i thought we had sorted yesterday coz then we arranged to meet n i got all excited, i woke up at 10 dis mrnin and woz making loads of effort in to the way i looked, and i kept getting a little hyper feeling when i thought of meetin him, we were supposed to meet at 2, so that meant i took lyk 4 hours of getting ready for him...jst him. and what happens? it comes to 5 mins before were supposed to be seein each other, im all excited, total looking forward to it...when all of a sudden i get a message, "sorry im cant make it xxxxx" and had to walk home, nearly in tears. the minute i got home i throw my fone down on the floor and started crying. i hate this! i dnt want to like him, at all. would save me so much heartache. :(

hey,

 thought i would rite in this since i hadnt for a few days, jst waned to thank everyone for their comments on last blog, its good to hear other peoples opinion as i cant get it from anyone else as only 2 people know about it - and thy both just say what i want to hear.

im going to try and get over him as he just seems to flirt with my supposed best friend. :( eugh its hard to say what i feel, i think is because im used to shutting my feelingd in and not used to voicing them.